GOING TO THE WHITE CHURCH WOULD HAVE BEEN EASY
5:30 a.m. came painfully early this morning. Especially after going to bed at 2 a.m. But I knew as I fell asleep that at first the alarm would not make sense to my tired body and brain, especially on my only day off this week, but then the reality of today would shutter me awake. Sure enough, the obnoxious alarm clock
rattled me out of sleep, I lay there wondering why I had to be awake now,
and then I vaulted out of bed, "Today is it, the church comes down. Let’s
get ready."
A year ago the story was so different. Hurricane Floyd swept over Eastern- North Carolina a week earlier, leaving Princeville, Pinetops, parts of Tarboro and other towns under as much as eight feet of water. Think about that, look at the ceiling in your house, it is about eight feet, now imagine your house, your neighbors’, and every house in a 50 mile radius under that much water. Now think about what would be usable after the water went down, nothing, absolutely nothing. The water, not clean, filled with mud, hog waste, and raw sewage. Even after the water recedes, all metal rusts, all wood rots, all plastic is contaminated, your life as you know it is gone. "But I am insured," you say. Are you? Your insurance probably only covers falling water---rain coming through the roof, not rising water--- flooding. This is an issue I have grown to know well over the past year, most people in the flooded areas of North Carolina did not have flood insurance, many had no insurance at all. This hurricane did not wipe out million dollar beach houses belonging to people who would just write them off of next year’s tax return, like many Carolina coastal hurricanes do. This force of nature, this act of God, hit one of the most economically depressed areas of the state, people who had worked their entire lives for the few things they had, and now they were gone. A storm with the cruelest outcome possible. And as it seemed, a racist storm. For you see, the people who live in the lowest lying areas around the flooded Tar River of Eastern North Carolina are predominantly African American. Many have farmed or lived on the same plot of land their family has held for generations, some such as Princeville, since their families were released from slavery. Many of these towns still live divided, a white side and a black side, and the floods went after the black sides for some reason no one can understand. October 3, 1999---It was the first Sunday after the water went down to the point people could return to their homes. Not return like go back inside and live again, but return to find everything, and I do mean EVERYTHING destroyed. It looked like a war zone from a third world country, collapsed houses, crushed cars, piles upon piles of rotting house innards. Nothing could be saved that could not be boiled, so other than glass and metal, nothing could be saved. Pictures, clothing, furniture, things people worked an entire life to accumulate were now rubbish in the street. Many people had to flee their homes with only the clothes on their backs and what they could carry. Think about it, what would you take? I came into work that Sunday morning knowing I would be going to Edgecombe County as I had done everyday since the flooding. Our assignment editor informed me I would be doing a story on churches that flooded out and what they were doing to continue with services and support their congregations. Great story, yes, only one problem. It was 11:00 a.m. That is when every church I have ever been to in the South (about 30 in all) start their Sunday morning services. Tarboro is an hour and a half away; I might get there for the last seconds of church, but nothing to make a story out of. I tried to impose the logic of the time-space continuum on our assignment editor, but it was over his head. Fine, there are a thousand stories in Tarboro, I will find one, but don’t bank on the church story." He still did not get it as I stomped out of the newsroom. This was my first solo trip to Tarboro.
Until this day, I had a reporter with me to discuss what the people were
going through, what we were going through. I got to Rocky Mount and knew
I was not in the right mindset to go to the devastated area yet. I stopped
at the Texaco on 301 to fill up the car. There were no open gas stations
in Tarboro and very few functioning phone lines, not a place I wanted to
be stranded. I also got some water and
I popped in the tape and realized it was the perfect soundtrack for driving to Tarboro- ---Miles Davis Ascenseur pour L’echafaud. Simple, dirty recordings. It is all the outtakes from the scoring sessions for a 1958 French film. They are slow and sad, technical and deliberate. I felt myself instantly go to the place that I mentally needed to be to face Tarboro. Twenty minutes later I was exiting Highway
64 to Princeville/Tarboro. Trash everywhere, some flooded cars still abandoned
in the median. I drove past the high school that was now an emergency shelter.
The McDonalds was now open at least. I drove through the city square, lined
with big white Victorian homes that remained unharmed by the flood. Then
I headed toward the river. Two city blocks later the destruction began.
Mattresses and computer monitors, easy chairs and children’s toys, wedding
albums and air
I drove past the big Episcopal church,
sandbags still lined the stone walls. A few people stood in the English
courtyard smiling and shaking hands. They were well dressed and getting
into big shiny cars, they were not flood victims by any means. They would
be easy to talk to about this, but there was not the level of story there
I knew was out there. I then drove the road closest to the river, St. Luke’s,
a historically black Baptist church was
I had missed my story and now I had to
find something else we had not done six times over. It was still early
on Sunday so people were not really cleaning or gutting their homes yet.
The day before when I was with a reporter, we saw some groups set up in
the town hall parking lot giving out free lunches. I drove back to Main
Street, but no one was at the Town Hall. People were cruising up and down
Main in their Sunday church clothes looking at the damage to downtown stores.
That could be my story, but I had seen a
I looped in and out of streets, I hoped I would not get a flat tire from driving through all of the debris from the homes. The piles of possessions were mind boggling, some of them you would look at the house and wonder how did all that stuff fit in there. Then I tried to imagine if I had to throw all of my worldly belongings on my front lawn for the world to look at, what would they think? And then there was the shot, it was not
a story, but what a shot. This story book red brick church with a tall
white steeple sat on the corner in the midst of the destruction with all
the pews lined up in the parking lot like they had decided to move services
outside for no apparent reason. I pulled in the parking lot next to the
rows of benches and walked to the front stoop of the church with just my
camera. Upon closer inspection, this little building was a flood victim.
A pile of rubbish was started along the side of the building, The Bible
sat on its pulpit, waterlogged, with the blue ribbon marker still stuck
in Psalms. I drove about three blocks, everything
around me was still destroyed. I looked for a church, but there was not
one to be found. I drove to where I knew it was too far and turned around.
I drove back down the street almost back to Eastern Star again. One more
try and then we will go back and ask again. I drove up the street and saw
lots of cars parked like there was a church in the area. Then a big white
wooden building caught my eye. It did not look like a church, more like
a really big, old house with peeling paint
Now, I am a white girl raised in New Mexico.
I did not meet a black person until I was in the fourth grade. The only
black people on TV were Sanford & Son and What’s happening while I
was growing up. Until I went to college, I only knew the stereotypical
things about African American culture like Kwanzaa and Martin Luther King
Jr.’s "I Have a Dream" speech. But before you think too badly of me, I
grew up in a Hispanic culture that North Carolina has yet to grasp. I celebrated
Las Posadas and made Christmas tamales and went to midnight mass in Latin
even though I am not Catholic. I set out
I got my gear and walked up the short steps. I stood in the foyer that was not even the size of my hall closet. I pressed on the tall wooden door and a black woman dressed head to toe in white, even with crisp white gloves poked her head around the door to see what I wanted. I quickly and quietly tried to explain to her that Deacon Parker sent me. She squeezed my elbow and escorted me to a clear area in the back of the church behind everyone, and EVERYONE turned around to see why the white girl with the big camera was there. I could feel my face turn hot and I eeked out an embarrassed smile, no one smiled back. Slowly attention turned back to the front of the church where one of the deacons was talking about donations for flooded families, but the children still hung their chins on the backs of the pews with their big dark eyes fixated upon my every move. I looked over the congregation. Despite the fact many of these folks lost everything they ever owned a week ago, they were dressed for church. Not Dockers and a pressed shirt or a floral print blouse with a pleated skirt kind of dressed for church, oh no, women in glorious hats with feathers and shiny beads, jewelry at every point on the body where clothing ended and flesh began, fancy dresses trimmed in vibrant colors and work hewn hands covered in snow white gloves. The men in their dark three-piece suits with bright bow ties and felt hats hanging off their knees tapped their spit shined shoes on the hollow floor. I knew the second Reverend William Clayton
stepped to the pulpit. Every face turned to shine on him. He was not going
to take it easy on the parish despite these hard times. "MY EYES DO NOT
KNOW TEARS… BECAUSE I KNOW I AM NOT IN THIS …BY MYSELF!" My ears rang from
his voice bouncing across the ancient church walls. Women raised their
bare palms to the sky and men thumped their heels with the Reverend’s cadence. I stood there in the back of the church, exhausted but enlightened as to what brings people to church. Slowly older members of the church approached me about my presence in their Sunday service. I put my best defense first, "I just met Deacon Parker at your church up the street, he told me I would not want to miss this, I wanted to see that you all are okay." One by one a crowd built around me as people welcomed me to their borrowed church and asked how I liked it. I told them I would be back. December 26, 1999---Thank God this day
fell on a Sunday. I knew a month ahead of time where I would be on the
day after Christmas. No post Noel shopping stories for me this year, I
was going to my church. I could barely sleep Christmas night, I was so
excited to be living up to my promise to the people of Eastern Star. I
gave myself a two hour head start to Tarboro, enjoying the lack of traffic
on Highway 64 and listening to Miles Davis the
As I observed the congregation settling in, I knew I would never be able to go back to boring white churches again. It was so obvious how much these people got out Sunday mornings. It was not the aloof filing in of families to soft organ music I knew, there were loud ladies hugging in the aisles and old men grabbing onto one another as they doubled over with laughter as children climbed on the pews and played on the pulpit. Eventually everyone settled into their seats as the choir churned on the stage. I knew what my story was, the two churches under one roof living in harmony. I rolled on the music and the people and the pastor. Yes, he was wonderful, completely different from Reverend Clayton, he jumped up and down on the stage and wore a long black robe. But he had the same effect on the crowd, again people rose to their feet, clapping and cheering, almost like a football game between Good and Evil, but you knew here that Good had the home field advantage. The service was coming to an end as I finally spotted two familiar faces in the crowd. Then the pastor called on one of them to rise and give some good news about Eastern Star to the congregation. A tiny woman you would want to be your grandmother, in her petite Sunday suit and matching plaid pillbox hat with pink flowers stood and announced that Christmas morning Reverend William Clayton and his wife brought a baby girl into the world. I had only met the man once, but I felt a rush of happiness push through my chest. The pastor dismissed the congregation and I rushed to catch the small woman. She remembered me from a few months earlier and gladly agreed to an interview. As I stood there asking Miss Shirley Mayes about the newborn member of their little church, her eyes became sad. "How is the rebuilding of the church going?" I piped up. She took a deep breath, "We are going to have to tear the church down". Hot tears suddenly burned in my eyes, this could not be, it was like she told me a good friend was going to die soon. She then told me the engineers determined the wood under the brick was too rotten from the water trapped in the walls to rebuild it. I thanked her as I grabbed a few more quick interviews about the two churches sharing the building for now what would be a very long time. I guess that is the bittersweet beauty of a church, they saw the opportunity to share as a blessing despite the depressing things that brought them together. It was like the first time I saw my best
friend, Lisa, after she was diagnosed with cancer, my head was heavy with
the mourning ahead. I was not sure of the time we had left together, but
I was well aware of the joy and strength in its history. I went to the car to get my camera and
a white Lincoln pulled up. One of the familiar faces from today’s congregation
got out. "I knew you were headed over here," the grandfatherly man said
as he settled his winter hat on his head and patted me on the shoulder.
I told him how sorry I was to hear the church would be torn down. The man,
who had seen many Sunday mornings in this church, gave me a sweet smirk,
" I am an old man, and she is my old girl." Right then I knew there was
no stopping Deacon William Joyner, just start rolling, again, no tripod,
no good microphone. We stood on the sidewalk in front of the church, "She
is sick, it’s time for her to go, we will live on, the church lives inside
of us, not in a building. This old woman and I have been together for a
long time but her time is done." I drove back to Raleigh and announced to the newsroom that the church had to be torn down. That night we tagged out the sad story with the good news about Reverend Clayton’s newborn daughter. In late February I covered a ground breaking
of a housing complex in Princeville. I was not really excited about watching
politicians shoveling sod, until I saw Reverend Clayton with a spade in
hand. After the ceremony I ran up to the pastor to ask when his building
would be demolished. Five months had passed and I figured he would not
remember me so I walked up and introduced myself. The reverend laughed
heartily, and pushed my hand away and gave me a big hug, "There my wife
and I were on the day after Christmas
In June, I had a Sunday where nothing was
going on in Raleigh or Durham, it was time to check on the church. Reverend
Clayton promised to call me when the church would be torn down, but I know
our phone message system at the station and I feared the building was a
pile of bricks now. It was the right weekend for Eastern Star to hold services,
not St. Paul’s. I got there good and early again and set up in what had
become my regular spot. I hugged Deacon Joyner and wished Miss Mayes a
happy birthday. When the Reverend stepped onto the stage he looked at me
and smiled. I could see why people do
Two weeks ago I opened up my work e-mail, TARBORO CHURCH DEMOLITION. I felt my heart sink as I opened up the message, it was finally here. I called the Reverend to let him know I would be there Monday morning. It fell on my only day off that week and I was glad. I could go down there on my terms, leave when I wanted and I did not have to slap it together into a story and could just enjoy the time with the congregation. I let the assignment desk know about the demolition and they told me Brian Bowman, another one-man-band photographer/reporter would be there. I was glad they saw how important this was to me. 5:30 a.m. came early. It took a moment
for me to figure out why I was getting up this early on a Monday morning
(my weekend). But then I could not get ready for my day fast enough. I
loaded up my gear and headed to Tarboro. I did not even wait for the radio
signals from Raleigh to get weak before I popped in Miles Davis. As I exited
64 into the town, the last year flashed before me. The people of this area
have come so far in the last year. There are parts of town where you have
to look for a minute to find evidence of
No one was really sad, they had a long
good bye and it made this seem merciful that it was finally here. It would
take about a week to tear the church down since the structure was so complex.
There was the leaning wall and the steeple that was not part of the original
church and all of the additions onto the back.
The color of a church. I thank God for
the lessons I have learned about doing the easy story versus doing the
good story.
Lynn French
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